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About Me

Seattle-ish, WA
30-something years old guy who attempts to make sense of everything happening around him and ultimately just having more questions than answers

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Song of the Year #4: Flo Rida - Right Round + Bonus Video

Happy New Years Eve Everyone!

Yes this one hit number one for 6 weeks. My only qualm is the heavy sampling done. I am weird about sampling. If done right then I won't mind. All I could think of when I hear this song was he's sampling Dead Or Alive "You Spin me Right Round." Whereas when Rihanna sampled Michael Jackson's "Wanna Be Starting Something" on "Don't stop the Music," I initially heard the sample but didn't care and love the song. Weird, I know.



Oh and if you have never seen or heard Dead or Alive... glory in his hair!


Wednesday, December 30, 2009

My latest acquisition!

I'm sure I did not adhere to any Ferengi Rules of Acquisition, but then again I'm not Ferengi.

Now that I put my Geek-hat away, let me don my Goth-hat on. I'm not really Goth but I had my moment in High School. I would wear all black, I was dark and brooding. I dabbled in the occult (still do.)

The most I got out of it though was the music. The Cure was a staple for any who wanted to get into Goth, it was like a beginners' handbook. For the 90s NIN, though not considered goth, added to my dark nature. Then, there's Siouxsie. I admit I did not listen to her until quite a bit later. Say ten years ago. I went through a bad patch then and though I was not wearing black all the time, my mood was there. My music got darker and angry again. I knew about Siouxsie and the Banshees back in high school but for some reason missed out. I think it may be because I was listening to more male artist back then and only started listening to female artists a little later.
I bought CD but I never bought any Siouxsie CDs.
Years pass... I'm not listening to a whole lot of dark music. In fact, I think I'm leaning to Dance again, but I had to buy this on Itunes. Maybe its the compelling cover art, the eyes telling me I must buy this, maybe there is a darkness inside me that is coming out again. Nevertheless, Siouxsie is now a part of my collection and I'm all the better for it.





Song of the Year #3: Black Eye Peas - I Gotta Feeling

This is the other song from the Black Eye Peas that hit number one. I actually had to warm up to this one, I was listening to "Imma Be" at this point.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Song of the Year #2: Black Eye Peas - Boom Boom Pow

Black Eye Peas dominated the number one spot for half the year. Yeah I wanted the CD so bad I borrowed my brother-in-law's copy and ripped it onto Itunes. Don't you love technology.

Monday, December 28, 2009

Song of the Year #1: Lady Gaga - Just Dance

With the year winding down, I figured I would show the top songs of 2009 before New Years Day. Lady Gaga's "Just Dance" was number one for three weeks with "Poker Face" spending one week.



The Holidays and the Feeling I am Being Watched

The holidays can be such a trying time for people. The manic shopping, the snow (for some areas), the traveling, the mass of people that congregate in one house for a full day.

When I met my guy I knew he had a better relationship with his family than I do mine. His mother is one of many children and each of them has their own family, but each holiday it can be guaranteed that there can be four generations of that family in the house. On top of that, my guy's step-father can have an equal amount of generations among his family in the household as well. A large, extensive and diverse family to say the least.

One distinction this family has is my guy's step-father is South African. And eventhough he lives here, some of his family still lives in South Africa. This season, we met his nephew and his nephew's girlfriend. We made our introductions. I was refered to as his "partner" which is fine for me, but my guy had to make the correction "husband." Mixed company is hard to gauge, but my guy smashes the gauge and tosses it out the window. Okay so awkwardness aside, we got to talking in the family setting we do, which is everyone discuss whatever, we are all adults and family so we can say what we feel. What's happening to the game that is on the TV, how has everybody been, anecdotes and jokes.

All through that, the nephew's girlfriend was staring at me. I thought it was a fluke, maybe she was paying attention to what I said, but it wasn't conversational attention, it felt like a stare. I'm usually not paranoid about these things, but I just had that itching feeling that i was being watched. Eventhough, I know we are among family and i shouldn't feel this way, I just could not shake the feeling. So while conversing, I would glance at her every once in a while and there she was staring at me. When I was actually talking to her, the little I did, she was watching me very closely. Do I have something on my face?! Her boyfriend was okay. He was normally talking and I did not have that weird feeling.

With the possibility of homophobia/ignorance, I thought maybe it was because we were gay. Is she staring at my guy? Or is she staring at everyone? Nope just me. Great it's not homophobia, it's because I'm brown. For a good several hours I had to deal with her scrutiny. I talked to my guy, she's watching me. I talk to his mom, she's staring at me. I talk to my man's step-father, she's watching. I talk to her, she was boring holes into my head.

The level of casualness and civility with mixed company was properly maintained. Amazing how adult we all are considering the childishness us 30somethings can assume. Of course, brother-in-law and stepbrother-in-law gets the brunt of my jokes as do I with theirs. After a while, she slacked off on the staring. After all, I talked to her as I would talk to anyone in that room.

Was she uncomfortable since there was another race in the room? Probably. Should she be, no. But it made me slightly uncomfortable being stared at. And besides it's rude. I wanted to say "take a picture, it'll last longer." Again, I'm not paranoid when it comes to racism, but I always get thrown off when it comes up personally, since it happens so infrequently in my life.

Afterward, I told my man about this and he got all flustered about why I did not tell him. I told him that it was minor compared to the joy we were having with the family. And that's what the season is about, time with friends and family and to put aside pretenses. If there was some prejudice/racism/ignorance on her part, hopefully she learned a little something from our family.